Lol sorry I can’t take a picture of myself with my professional camera everyday and write a post of how I’m so love sick three times every hour. I don’t know how you guys balance your time with this website sometimes.

I never really understood what people meant when they said things like “he’s the person who can make or break my day” or “talking to him can change my mood, always” until I met you. I couldn’t have ever understood how just one person could make such a difference, until you. Honestly, ever since “we started” I always think to depend on you. When I’m having a bad day, you’re the one who’d help me back up on my feet in an instant. I only thought you would have “THAT” effect on me. I didn’t know there was a bad side. Lately, you’ve made me feel like shit. How? I don’t know myself. Really, it just shows how much my mood shifts because of one person and these are the kind of things love does to me. It’s crazy. I’m crazy. You have me on that depressing songs right now. “For better or worse, I still will choose you first” even if you make mistakes. Or if I make mistakes. I can’t think. Arguing with you is endless.

Ugh one con of not being on tumblr too much is not being able to stalk people who actually have good blogs. It’s like, they have so many new posts. It’s so hard to take it all in……………

I CANT FIND WHAT IM LOOKING FOR. Lol, trying to figure out if this girl is still dating her boyfriend of two years.. I kinda left tumblr while they were going downhill BUT OMG THEY WERE PERF.

Depressing day lol. There was probably 728493842892 other posts about this, but damn… Bulls are out, Boston won, and there’s going to be a game 7 for the Lakers. TODAY JUST PROVED THAT LA IS NOT CAPABLE OF WINNING THE CHAMPIONS…… Oh man. Lol well I’ve been getting some ball practice lately. Can’t wait for next season to start. Ahmmmm, my mommy bought me pink kobe’s hehehoahahah. Cute.

I cannot stress how much I hate having any grade in ANY class lower than an A. I’ll get frustrated and mad and sad and will convince myself that I’m stupid. Why would I be happy with a B when I know I can strive and achieve with so much better? I don’t know, I guess I’ve always been that “over-achiever” type. Lol it’s scary sometimes.

I put the proin pro-crastination. Ugh, seriously, the only weekend when my dad gives me my laptop back to do a project, I get caught up videochatting with the boyf. most of my weekend. It was a pretty good weekend though. Caught up with my lady-girlfriends @ hookah barrrr…. Lol, also caught up with bball practice (havent played in 2 weeks oh lordyyyy).. Idk, just filled with great vibes but I wish I havent gone out so much. Lucky him, falling asleep on the phone while I’m struggling, trying to study for 2 quizzes tomorrow and plus, a bunch of shit is due too. Mm, good luck to me catching the school bus tomorrow morning.

Meanwhile, I am jamming out to Gabe Bondoc and studying for my WH test + listening to the boyf. snore. Cute.

It’s Not Just You | Nasri

Baby it’s not just you, you know it hurts me too. Watching you leave with tears on your sleeve. Notice that mine aren’t exactly dry. Baby it’s not just you, that’s hurting, it’s me too.

(Source: kimburrit0)

OKAY SO THERE WAS THIS REALLY AWKWARD MOMENT YESTERDAY WHEN I WENT TO GO SMOKE HOOKAH WITH MY FRIENDS AND LIKE WE ORDERED A SHIT LOAD OF BOBA TO GO WITH EVERYTHING AND ENDED UP NOT HAVING ENOUGH MONEY…… we dipped. and we’re never coming back….. 

Haha I really need some new friends. Or just a friend who is completely compatible with me is fine. I have never met someone who is so much alike with me in my life yet. I haven’t met someone who has the same taste in music as me.. who lives in the same area as me.. who has the same style, personality, etc. as me. A friend I can go to when I’m at my low point and will always be real and honest with me. I don’t know, I just always wanted a friend I can do anything and everything with. Some people complain about them not having friends but THEY HAVE NOT MET ME. Shit I am the loneliest it can get haha. HOW CAN I MAKE NEW FRIENDS?

I really don’t know what to write anymore. Lol my problems are the same and I’m always repetitive with my posts. What’s the point of writing a post about my “”“problems”“” that probably 4983529843578 other girls already stated for me? Do people even read the posts and care? Every blog I look like looks the same to me, including mine. Oh wells.

Just glad summer is almost here. Only one more month and im “free”. Free from going to school. The place that keeps me from sleep. Keeps me from being myself. Sadly, summer vaca. is a month shorter but it’s okay. Summer starts getting boring during the third month anyways. I hope this summer really does bring good vibes. I want to surround myself around good people and good thoughts. I’ve been around enough bullshit during the school year and I can’t recall the last “good” summer I had. I deserve it. I really do.

I don’t get enough sleep. I’m waiting for everything to be over. Everyone gives me nothing to talk about. I’m upset, worried, falling apart. All of the above. And you expect me to not be grouchy?

There’s no one to have a steady conversation with anymore. Everything is just stuck in my head. Exactly like a clock not ticking, useless. I hate wasting my thoughts, feelings, emotions, etc. I think of good shit sometimes, you know? Would be nice if people heard what I had to say once in a while.